You’re getting ready to go to camp on Sunday, and I always send notes with you when you’re away. But this year will be different. I’m blogging to you. That’s right. You’re the topic of my latest blog entry. And since you don’t read my blog I can do it before you leave!
I just wanted you to know how proud I am of you, my 16-year-old son who used to be my baby. Until we adopted and you became the middle child. We were all forever changed. Sometimes I think it’s been hardest on you because you have more trouble expressing your feelings. I won’t call you a typical teenage boy because you’re anything but that. You have big thoughts and big ideas and a call on your life by God. I am always here for you to talk to even when it seems like I’m the enemy (driver’s license issues) or hard to talk to. I know I don’t think like a guy but I gave birth to you and that gives me reason to want to know everything about you. Even when I realize that won’t ever happen. I just want you to know that it’s okay not to be perfect. There is nothing you can do that will ever keep me from you. I have known you were special since before you were born. Through all the difficult years since the adoption you have shown character and maturity beyond your years. I know it hasn’t been easy for you. But I believe every trial has been for our benefit, to bring us to the feet of God. I can’t fill every part of your heart. No one but God can. I pray I will always be here for you, but no one knows the future. That’s why your faith will always be your strength. God didn’t promise us an easy road. He promised to be beside us on the journey.
You have an opportunity this week to influence other young boys and be God’s hands and feet to them. I will be praying for you as you lead, learn and reflect God’s love. I will miss you tremendously. But I am thankful that even though every day means you spreading your wings even more, I would never miss this chance to be a part of your life. I am your biggest fan. I love you, Joshua. Don’t forget to call 🙂