I think as a mom, and a RAD mom in particular, I have trouble having fun. So many serious thoughts and worries and trials are constantly battling for attention. 24-hour vigilance and precautions and watching for signs of inappropriate behavior. My kids need me to be more fun. I know that. It’s just so hard! But today I was a fun mom! Woohoo! After S’s soccer game we came home and it started raining hard for just a short period of time. We have a drain at the edge of the street and all the water was pouring into it. M and S went out to play in the rain and I went to take pictures. As I was leaving they asked if I’d play with them. I just walked inside, tore off my shoes and ran back outside, a kid at heart! We splashed and I got soaked and we chased and ran up and down the street. It was delightful. I know our hearts touched, maybe sincerely for just a few moments, but it was real to them. It was what they needed, not more lectures and consequences and early bedtimes. Just a mom who put them first in a way they could see and feel. Oh, Lord, give me more spontaneity and energy and joy. Please, Lord, more joy.