Lisa posted about traumaversaries here. I have believed what she said and tried to connect it with my kids, sometimes wondering because many of their “traumaversaries” are unknown to me. Well, last night I had my own light bulb moment…..for my own traumaversary. (I’m trying to see how many times I can write that word in one post.) I was out of sorts yesterday. It was my 24th wedding anniversary, Tim has been sick, I just haven’t been on my game. It was not the best day. I cooked a special dinner, S baked a heart shaped cake, still not real exciting. I was literally crawling out of my skin, irritated at the computer and everyone else. And then at the end of the day, after everyone was in bed, it hit me. February 15th, today, is the two year anniversary of my dad’s death. I hadn’t even remembered it but apparently my body did. I guess I can have a little better understanding of the triggers my kids have. Theirs are obviously on a much bigger scale but it gave me something to think about.
Dad, I miss you.
Hope you and Mom are dancing a jig after being reunited.
I’m still trying to honor you both in the way I live my life and how I handle the circumstances with mom’s death.
I love you.
Your baby girl.