Are You Afraid?
For those of you who write quite transparently, are you ever afraid?
Having gone through false accusations with an adopted child, I know the absolute helplessness of being investigated for something that was totally wrong and uncalled for.
The quickened heartbeat when the doorbell rings.
Social Services standing at the door.
Do you let them in, ask for papers, slam the door in their face?
I will never, ever forget it.
I think I’ve forgiven the child, but quite possibly not.
There is no restoration with an emotionally scarred child, at least not at this time.
So to those of you who tell so much more of your story than me
do you fear the possible repercussions and loss of parental control?
Do you wish you could tell it all on your blog
or do you always ask yourself before you hit publish if this is the right thing to do?
I battle the desire to help others live through the indescribable pain
of raising a child with emotional and mental health issues
with hiding under a rock for fear of being too transparent
or hurting someone in the process.
Or worse yet, putting my family in jeopardy.
I don’t know how to balance that. Do you?